to propose or not to propose!

Vivan was in love.Vivan wanted to propose to the girl of his dreams.Vivan was scared as scared could be.


He was what one would call a late bloomer.When the boys his age were experiencing the first jolt of their hormones and calling it love for want of a better word, he was experiencing the same feelings ,but he was experiencing them for his first desk top.When boys his age were learning to live with their hormones and experimenting with what they called relationships ,for the want of a word they knew;he was learning the joys and wonders of modern technology.When boys his age were learning to differentiate between love and lust ,he was enjoying learning to differentiate between the subtle nuances of Linux and windows.


Since he was impervious to it all ,the adolescent roller coaster of teenage emotions generated by juvenile feelings passed him by.He grew up to be a young man who knew that the world was full of wonders that one can gaze at !


And wonder of all wonders ,as he began to gaze at the wonders all created by god ,as opposed to wonders created by man ,he realized that that the wonder of all wonders was woman.In fact ,it was one particular woman.


The better he knew her the more fascinated he was , and within a space of a few months he not only covered all the milestones that he had not ; in the last ten years and arrived at what he could classify as love.


Now what?


Vivan went through all his life experience.Nothing had prepared him for this.


He did not know what to do!


Suddenly all was spring ,he began to understand romantic melodies,that god had created every living being in pairs and here was his soul mate ,not looking at him.She looked but did not know all that passed within his heart.


He was plunged into sadness and found no way out.The only way out was to tell her how he felt.That was tough.Clammy palms and sweating brow never did stop a man from reaching his destination.This time it did.


The object of his desire felt that he had suddenly developed a fever and took him to a doctor like the good friend she was.The next day,he managed to find an opportunity again to talk to her .Unfortunately ,he had no romantic language,so his proposal seemed to be an offer for a job or probably a merger,since none of them were yet business tycoons , she offered to take him to a doctor...again! The third day he managed to corner her again ,however the office romeo butted in , and he flirted outrageously with the one he loved and he was ready to kick butt or run away.
Well ,he ran away.


Vivan acknowledged to himself that not only was he scared to speak his mind ,he was also most unprepared for what he could say or do to make the right kind of impact on her.The only thing that offered him comfort was his laptop ,his companion and friend.


Pulling his wits about him he began to compose the first romantic e mail of his life.He grinned as he hit the send button!