overcoming EGO !

He knew he was a compromise candidate.


The way the selection committee had been divided was clear.Two members were clearly backing the one they had brought in ,two were neutral but they did not want to say anything just then , the other two had an obvious soft corner for him but they had to be scrupulously fair at all the times.The head of the committee seemed to have a regard for him but her attitude had more to do with the other candidates with whom she seemed less than impressed.




He knew he was capable of the post.

The way the selection committee was functioning it had not seem probable that they would reach a decision soon.Even if they did , it would not be acceptable to all of them.Even if all of them accepted it ,they would not be happy about it .Even if two of them would be happy about it ,the others would begrudge his success.And after all this this kind of discord would not allow him to function well.


He was confident of his abilities.

He was intelligent enough to take good decisions and diligent enough to follow through.

He could work at creating good vibes in his own sphere and he knew how to create popularity too.He could garner the support of his team and all those on which the results would depend.He could be a nice guy when he wanted to and he could be a tough guy when the circumstances demanded him to be one.



He knew at present it was not a question of his capabilities .

It was a more a question of what was going to be acceptable to all the members of the selection committee.It was also a question of his not being everyones' absolute and final choice.The problem lay with those people who were now debating behind closed doors.He could guess at what was being said and debated.The problem also lay with him.


He knew that the problem also lay with him.

He hated the word compromise.He did not like the fact that the committee was composed of an equal number of people fairly divided by their like and an equal dislike for him.He could overcome their prejudices if given a chance .But how would he overcome his own pride?



His one failing was his own ego which ruled him strongly.

If they chose him ,would he like be chosen? Would he like to work with those who had no high opinion of him?Would he be able to take the put downs ...the snide comments....the disregard?

He had always had a very strong sense of his own dignity...his pride in his achievements.

Would he be able to overcome opposition the most...and indifference at the very least ?And most important of all would he be able to overcome his own ego?




He wondered as he waited .

He waited for an eternity , or was it only till the announcement of their final choice was made.

But he knew that his decision would have to be made before that door opened and the selection was made.The battle within his mind raged .He was torn between the acceptance because that would mean that he would have to work with people who had initially rejected him and refusal because that would mean that he was conceding the victory to those who had said that he was incapable...a loser.




His pride and ego would have to go.

He reconstructed his self ...piece by piece .Overcoming ego was the toughest thing he had ever done .But he did it.He was not going to be a loser.The door opened.

He lifted up his head to hear his name being announced...